Every time I write or say that, it blows me away. "D132". Once I got through the really bad craving period, it seems like somebody hit the Fast Forward button on life. Cuz it's just really flying by right now.

Of course, part of that has to do with the new job. In a sense, I'm still freelancing because I'm still working on a contract basis. But it's so nice not to have to go client shopping once a week. :-) I hope to be with this company for a very long time. My first day, Bossman handed me seven pages of domain names. Those are all the sites I'll be developing over the next few months.

Yes, I'm sure I mean "next few months" and not "next year or two". Just this week I put up five websites. Most are totally complete, and most are very small, 2 page mini-sites that I can get through production in a day or two. Still, it's work. True, I don't get the creative outlet of a full fledged design stage for each one. But... I don't have to go client shopping once a week. :-)

I've had to battle some smoking thoughts these past few weeks. My big "smoking times" in my past life were centered around the rush to work and the trip back home. On the way to work, I'd suck down as many as possible as fast as possible. I never smoked during the work day (had the odd belief that nobody ever knew I was a smoker) so getting ready for work meant getting a day's worth of nicotine in 45 minutes.

Driving home, I chain smoked simply from a place of desparation. It's that old routine all over again - if you know there's a fix for your addiction then you can't get to it fast enough. I was so very tough on myself, to put myself through that constant state of withdrawal for so many years.

Thankfully, I'm far enough into my Quit to know that these smoking thoughts are just residual memories of a routine I've given up. I genuinely believe I've broken the addiction, even though I feel I'm still an ex smoker working toward graduating to being a non-smoker.

I believe the biggest tool I've had in my arsenal from day one was knowledge - what I learned as I began educating myself...

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