I know that I say this just about every time I post, but wow... I can hardly believe my Quit! I am so very happy to be smoke-free, even when I get sneak attacks from my inner junkie and have a smoking thought or two. It's no problem keeping myself in my non-junkie mindset anymore. It's more of an annoyance that the other mindset ever existed really.
I'm in the south awaiting the birth of our latest grandbaby; we should get to see her make her grand entrance this week. Since she'll be ushered in special delivery (aka "C-Section") we believe we know the exact date and time. But of course, you can't fool Mother Nature. If she wants things done on a different schedule -- well, we won't argue.
I've been around more smokers here in the past week and a half than I have been in the last 3 years in SD. Sadly, all of my kids smoke. Or did. My youngest has just proclaimed her independence. Today is her D3. She's doing well, and I pray she keeps this Quit. I pray she understands how very lucky it is to have an easy Quit. She slapped a patch on and kept one on 24/7 till today. She took it off early this a.m. and seems to prefer CT.
I sincerely hope she holds on.
I'm still learning so much. I think that's one of the best gifts you give yourself during a Quit -- the gift of self-discovery. Of setting yourself on a journey and, eventually, one day, realizing you've been on a journey all this time -- it's just that now you're aware of the journey, and of the blessing of continually learning new things. It's been amazing.
One thing I believe is that I traded my addiction to sickarettes for an addiction to food. I'm doing something about it, and I hope attaining my weight goals is as pain-free and rewarding as my achievement in quitting has been. I've joined SparkPeople and I really do like that. But if you want, you can go to NutriSystem's website and use their meal planners and such, and not have to buy their food even. It's all free.
That's a price point I can live with. :-)
The point is, I knew when I was going through the early stages of my Quit that I was substituting food. I just really had hoped that it would level itself out. Now, when I'm bored I just reach for food. Not good. It's behavioral, not craving based - but it's still not good. I'll keep my progress posted here as I go through the reduced intake and increased expenditure of calories...
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